September 26, 2006

My Identity?

I have been asked this question several times in many different forms; to know my caste/language/origin/religion etc. Mostly I end up answering a word or two to close the topic. But this time in Chennai, I was totally thrown off balance when some one asked “Which country are you from?”. J

This made me mull over the very purpose behind such questions. And what I could come up with is that mostly it is an attempt to CLASSIFY me in some defined category to ascertain my traits; in another word, to associate me with certain STEREOTYPES.

But, do all these factors really define me as a person! Let me ponder:

By nationality I’m an Indian and yet I have not exercised the most important and fundamental right granted to me i.e. of voting and contrary to most of the westerners’ assumption about Indians, I’m a religious non-vegetarian (many people here too think that I must be a vegetarian [probably judging from my appearance]). Moreover, I do not share my views on many issues of national interest with most of my countrymen.

My mother tongue is Hindi and it has been the medium of education for the major period of my life, but it’s been years I have read a Hindi newspaper or written a full page in the language. And as of now, probably, I can write Tamil (script only) with the same level of comfort.

Being a Hindu in itself mandate me to find a unique identity of my own, following my own distinct path to the Light and allows me to reject anything which I personally do not believe in.

Owing it to my caste, though I am not entitled to the benefits of reservation, still I strongly believe that due to the actions perpetrated over the past several centuries, it is very much indispensable for the collective good.

And this may raise some eyebrows J; though I am born and have been brought up as a male of the human species, a small but significant part of my psyche is essentially feminine.

And in the end to substantiate my point, most of the people I meet, identify me as someone from Bengal, Haryana or even form Andhra and hardly able to connect me to my actual place of birth.

September 04, 2006

Pulp Fiction

Mia: Don't you hate that?
Vincent: Hate what?
Uncomfortable silences.
Mia: Why do we feel it's necessary to yak about bullshit in order to be comfortable?
I don't know. That's a good question.
Mia: That's when you know you found somebody really special.
When you can just shut the fuck up for a minute and comfortably share silence.

Chasing Amy

Holden: Can I ask you a question ? Why me ?
Alyssa: Well, because you were givin' me that look and I got all wet.
Holden: You know what I mean.
Alyssa: Why not you ?
Holden: Well, I'm a guy. I mean... you're attracted to girls.
Alyssa: I see you’ve been taking notes.
Alyssa: Historically.......yes......That's true.
Alyssa: Well, I've given that a lot of thought, you know.
Alyssa: Now that I'm being ostracized by my friends, I've had plenty of time to think about it.
Alyssa: And what l've come up with is really simple.
Alyssa: I came to this on my own terms.
Alyssa: You know, I didn't just heed what I was taught: "Men and women should be together, it's the natural way," that kind of thing.
Alyssa: I'm not with you because of what family, society, life...tried to instillin me from day one.
Alyssa: The way the world is, how seldom it is that you meet that one person who...just gets you.
Alyssa: It's so rare. My parents didn't really have it. There were no examples set for me in the world of male-female relationships.
Alyssa: And to cut oneself off from finding that person-- to immediately halve your options by eliminating the possibility...of finding that one person within your own gender-- that just seemed stupid to me.
Alyssa: So I didn't.
Alyssa: But then you came along.
Alyssa: You, the one least likely. I mean, you were a guy.
Holden: Still am.
Alyssa: And while I was falling for you I put a ceiling on that, because you were a guy.
Alyssa: Until I remembered why I opened the door to women in the first place:
Alyssa: "To not limit the likelihood of finding that one person who'd...complement me so completely."
Alyssa: So, here we are. I was thorough when I looked for you. And I feel justified lying in your arms...
Alyssa: 'cause I got here on my own terms, and I have no question there was someplace I didn't look.
Alyssa: For me that makes all the differece.